Well, it feels like my friends are leaving me
My best friend since first grade barely spoke to me today despite
it being the first time in two weeks I've seen her.
Apparently she's got a boyfriend now, which she didn't bother
to tell me before...
I've been sick for a week and barely anyone in my class noticed
I was gone well enough to say 'Welcome back'.
Not a single person I knew texted me to say 'get better' when I was sick.
So far, one person has called me to wonder how I'm feeling.
The first one in...
The first one to ever do that.

I just feel like I have no point ._.
No one remembers me, no one cares about what I have to say,
and whatever I do say it's always worse than what
someone else says.
I'm afraid of being forward, giving ideas, because they're always rejected.
People say I should study and I feel like..
What for?
I know I'm not going to become anything anyway.
I'm too lazy to study, I can't do maths at all despite all
my efforts, I can't even multiply 4x8 in my head.
I can't do it on paper, either.
People have told me it's all about being stubborn,
and being willing to learn, then you learn.
But I'm not stubborn, nor willing to learn.
I'm tired of it. -_-

Sick and tired of it.
Sick of this stress that never fades, making the voices in my head make an uproar.
I hate that even though I have TOLD my parents that I'm unhappy,
they don't do anything. Not a thing.
"You're not."
That's all I get.
They want to move out of the city, away from my school, away from all my friends.
Not that my friends really care, they just act upset
because that's what you do when old friends are supposed to move.

I really, really do hate my life.
And I will act as if everything's fine if you ask how I am.
Because despite that I want you to ask, I don't want to answer.
I just want a sign that you care.
That's all.





I love you guys who I haven't met, tho.
You guys here on the internet.
I just needed to rant, ignore me.