Using this meme to vent.

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

1. Words will bring me down. Be careful about what you say to me, I suck everything up like a sponge and I turn it into something negative. Even if it's just a joke like "Oh stop whining you silly person~" or "Haha you're such an idiot sometimes"... It gets to me, and it hurts. Alot.

2. Don't. Ignore. Me. I get horrified if someone is ignoring me, and it throws me straight into a depression. I don't know what to do or how to act, and I just.. Panic.

3. I don't trust anyone. Not. Anyone. Even if I do stuff with people, tell people my secrets, I do not trust anyone. I constantly worry about being betrayed.

4. I can sit outside in -10 C for two and a half hours, just to see if anyone wonders where I am. And no one ever does, not even my parents. I can drop all the happy-acting in school or the like to see if anyone asks me how I'm feeling. No one ever does.

5. I get ridiculously happy when I get praised. That's probably the main reason as to why I draw; it gets me praise. Attenton-whore? Not really. It's just to reassure myself that I have some sort of worth.

6. I love to laugh and have fun. Like, LOVE. I can do the same thing over and over just to be able to laugh.

7. I don't mind repeating things. I can listen to the same song for weeks without getting tired of it.

8. I feel very sorry for myself. It's pathetic, but I have my reasons. The main one is; because no one else here, around me, in Sweden, will.

9. I lie alot. I don't mind lying to make people not worry. I want people to worry about me, but still I don't and... I'm just weird.

10. I'm constantly depressed.


TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now: (to online and irl friends)

1. Thanks for making me feel even more like I have no value. Ever since you got into puberty you've been one of the main sources of my depressions. Thank you for always telling me things like that I'm an awful sister and that I'll be a horrible mother.

2. You... We've been friends for so long. Eleven years. And still you have not said, even one single time, that I'm really great at drawing. You're the one person I seek approval from, and the one person who won't give me it.

3. It would be nice if you for once would let me talk to you and cry, without you going "oh pull yourself together" after a while, when you are tired of me. I know I'm not perfect, not even close, but it would be nice if you for once at least acted like you cared until I've stopped crying.

4. I've never been so confused before. You've changed so much in such a short time, and it's scaring me. How can you say "I love you" one day and then just.. Disappear from my life the other? I want everything to be like it was, before the whole love thing, but I know that'll never happen. You want me to hate you, after all...

5. Thank you. Really. You've been there everytime you've had time, and I'm really grateful. I'm sorry for venting to you so many times. You mean alot to me, and I'm glad I'll hopefully get to see you next year. <3

6. Don't call me sweetie, don't make people believe we're dating. I enjoy talking to you most of the time, but it IS annoying that /I/ have to call every time because /you/ can't afford calling people. You're the one with a job, jackass. And for fucks sake.. Don't flirt with me and when I say no, ask if my friend's got a boyfriend.

7. I LOVE YOU. YOU CUTE LITTLE BLACK THING. Eleven years soon. God do I love you, Milla. You're the only love I need. <3 I can't imagine a life without you.

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EIGHT ways to win your heart:

1. Sadly, I do
2. not really
3. want anyone
4. of you guys
5. to "win"
6. my heart.
7. So.
8. Fuck off.


SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

1. What to do with my life
2. Why I'm so useless
3. If I'll ever be happy
4. If my parents really love me
5. What people think of me
6. My appearance
7. Losing weight

TAGGING:

I won't tag anyone.
Do it if you want to.

Seriously!
Sure, I have a comp now, I was REALLY happy and feeling GREAT
until my screen suddenly SHRINKED.
Not much, just a tiny bit. I didn't even notice it until I
went to doodle on paint.
THE PIXELS ARE SMALLER THAN THEY SHOULD BE.
THEY ARE FUCKING GREY WHEN THEY SHOULD BE BLACK AND ALL FUZZY.


I am so frustrated, I've cried several times.
Text size, resolution, formats, everything is set AS NORMAL.
STILL IT'S WRONG!


Why can't things just work..?
Every time something looks up for me, I find myself falling into a pit..
I want to be able to draw, because I FINALLY have a computer so
I can use my tablet, but the pixels are so messed up
that I CAN'T.


;___;

Why won't things work..?

I am such a bother 8D

::WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF I...::


I died:

I kissed you:

I fell:

I lived next door to you:

I showed up at your house unexpectedly:

I stole something:

I was murdered:

I cried:

I asked you to marry me:

I was hospitalized:

::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY::

Personality:

Eyes:

Hair:

Family:

Smile:

::WOULD YOU::/

Trust me enough to sleep in the same bed as me?

Keep a secret if i told you one?

Hold my hand?

Study with me?

Cook for me?

Love me?

Date me?

Have sex with me?

::HAVE YOU EVER::

Lied to make me feel better?

Wanted to kiss me?

Wanted to kill me?

Broke my heart?

Thought I was unbearably annoying?

Hated me?

Wanted to tell me something but didn't?

Wondered about my sanity?

Wanted to do something to me?
If you're bored.


::More::

When and how did we meet?

Describe me in three words.

What was your first impression of me?

What do you think of me now?

What reminds you of me?

Could you see us together forever?

When's the last time you saw me?

Are you gonna re-post this to see what I say about you?

Do you care?

SUKIYAKI TONIGHT OMGEE I AM SO EXCITED *w*


Sukiyaki is a japanese dish where you have like a
pot with soysauce and some sugar-spice thing and then you boil
thin meat and noodles and vegetables in it and eat with rice and egg *w*



I LUFF IT.



OMNOMNOMTIMEPLZPASSIWANTDINNER.